Realization...

With the birth of my 3rd child, I started to come to the realization that life is such a precious gift.  Not that I didn't know this before, but the more my family has grown the more I have felt so overwhelmed by my feelings to care for them and not let anyone or anything ever hurt them in the slightest that I have completely been worrying myself to know avail.  I needed to just breathe and look at what I have and not worry so much yet be happy for what I have because worrying is not going to let me enjoy it all.

As each day passes, I realize that we can't take everything so seriously in life and worry ourselves to death.  We should take each day as it comes, but live in the moment as we don't know when it could be our last. You have to do what is best for you and know that you simply can't please everyone, but the main thing is to keep yourself happy because if you are not happy, the people around you can sense it and they in turn will be effected.  

As I look at my youngest, I am enveloped by all the emotions I have.  I don't want her to grow so quickly as my other two have.  I want to be able to remember each day, each hour, minute even down to the seconds...I wish I could hold that and replay it when I want, just like a video, but always running.

I want to make sure that each of them never have to feel any hurt, pain, sadness and if so, I'd gladly take it for/from them.  As their mother I am their nurturer, their protector, their guardian, their friend, their MOM(Manager/Master of Memories/Moments).

Embrace the life that you have, the life you create and the life you will live.  You lead by example and in doing so hopefully we will keep playing it forward so that everyone around us and our children will lead happy lives as well.

I thank the loves of my life(my 3 kiddos and my husband) for teaching me these lessons without even knowing it.